Well this week at the Temple things were happening all around. With lots of the Jedi off planet or on Missions... I seemed left out as usual so I spent most of my time either in my room or in my classes. I sometimes would lurk in the dinning room and in the halls sitting in my usual spots... Yes on the steps, off to the corner, out of the way, watching everyone pass me by.... I find it fun and amusing sometimes to just watch everyone comming and going. Sometimes I'd catch a Master and their Padawan together talking. Or I'd see some of the Masters standing off to a corner just speaking to one another. Being here I sometimes felt invisible. Which was ok. I would practicing shielding myself from others sensing my presence. Something I am glad my Master Phobia has taken the time to show me how to do. It is funny to know this ability. I can sneak up on people, listen to others, or just hide. I used this cloaking talent to do the later of the three. It was not like I wanted to hide, I just felt like sometimes I needed to observe everyone else without being noticed. Today here's what I saw....
I saw Master Yoda. He was sitting down thinking Force knows what. I could tell He was in deep thought cuz he totally missed two younglings who were off in another corner making funny faces at him. I nearly broke my concentration and almost got discovered. I recon it continued for over five minutes till one of the head instructors came out and spotted them. He didnt scold them out loud He simply told them to stop that and to go into their class and await for the Instructor to come in.
I also saw Master Windu looking out one of the windows, I am guessing he likes to look out the windows too. I nearly went over to him to ask him something, but thought it best I not and that it best I just sit here.
Down the hall I saw Master Shaak Ti and Master Barriss talking. They looked like they was having a grand time. Though I still cant get the immage I saw on Master Shaak Tis face when Master Barriss said something to her. Master Shaak Ti's eyes got huge like saucers. When things like this happen I use my immagination to figure things out. Yeah one could say I was officially bored at this point.
I did this watching till around lunch time came around. I walked as usual unnoticed to the Temple Cafiteria got some food and sat at a table way off in the corner all alone. Lunch today was fish with potato sticks, vegies, and a little thing of fruit and a cup of juice.
When I finished my lunch, I went to my class of History. I didnt care all to well for History, my theory is, why should I learn about the past when todays problems are yet to be solved? Besides the Instructor was all "Bla bla" *Tee-hee* When History class ended, I darted out faster than a bolt of lightening... I had about fifteen minutes to make it to saber training class. One more late time and I'll be stuck behind in that class after lessons. I ran down the hallway and made it into class with about seven minutes to spare. I walked in and took a seat on the floor closest to the wall. Master Cinn had returned that morning and wasnt in a good mood. I stayed quiet and did as told. After class he pulled me aside to ask me...
"Belda, it isnt like you to hide as you have been doing, whats wrong?"
I geuss he must have sensed I was feeling bored and a bit lonely... I just shrugged my shoulders and said "No Sir, Master Cinn nothing is wrong, everything is um ok..."
He gave me a concerned look then noded. "You may go now"
At that I darted off to my Meditation spot. The only one I know of. I sat in my secret spot and cried silently. In reality something was wrong... I missed my Master. I feel left out, invisible, like no one would even notice if I disapeared all together. I must have been there a long time cuz I heard the Meal Tone sounding off. I got up and walked to the Temple Cafateria. About this time I was starting to wonder if I truelly belonged here? Dinner was ok, it was some kind of casarol surprise with a dinner roll and some tea to drink. As I did at lunch, I did at dinner, I ate all alone.
After dinner I decided to head off to the Archives. I loved to look at all the bright Holo's. I walked up and down every row till I came to the back of it. There were so many holo's. I finially found one I thought I'd like. I reached for it and went over to a sitting area and began to read it. It was very intresting... Madame Nu told me she wanted to close up the Archives early tonight and hepled me to check out the Holobook. I took the holo back to my room and showed it to Guardian my bear, my one true friend in the whole galaxy. After I showed him the holobook, I told him of all my adventures and happenings that had occured throughout the day.
I am so glad Guardian doesnt leave, He's a great friend...
