Thursday, November 01, 2007

They're Back!




Hello there.... As usual I woke up the next few days bored out of my mind. all I had to keeping me company was my lessons. I decided to take a brake. Something inside me told me to go down the hall and into the meditation room... And to my surprise, there she was... After all this time now sat was Master CeCe Denowai! I couldnt believe my eyes! I ran up to her and quietly sat next to her. She looked over at me and smiled.





"Hello there Belda..." CeCe Smiled.






"Master CeCe, hello there.." I still couldnt believe my eyes.





"I know your gonna ask, where I have been. I was on a mission, an unexpected mission far to dangerous for you to have gone with me." She said.






"I tried to wait Master CeCe for you to return. I was told you may not ever be comming back." I felt kinda bad because I obviously didnt wait long enough.





"It's ok Belda, the Council must have thought something close to what you had felt and..." She looked sad.




"Master CeCe, my Master Phobia she's really good. She teaches me alot of things, like how to use the Force to sheild myself." I smiled.





"Belda, is that orthodox to be learning?" She had a very concerned look on her face.






"Yes, I think it is, I think it is essentual. I sense I may need to use such a gift in the future" I said simpily.





"Belda? Really now... But yes I know who Master Phobia is. I know she will teach you very well, but if you ever need someone to talk to, I am here." She said with a smile.






"Yes Master CeCe." I said.




"I see you have made your first saber... tell me all about it?" Her smile was so sinsere.





For over an hour I spoke with her telling her how I made my first saber and of all the going on's around the temple. I told her about all about Catia, Marasha, and Master Godfrey. I told her of how the Phantom Evil had stoped haunting my bedside. After I had filled her in, she offered for me to join her in walking to the main hall. I accepted. When we got there I saw my Master! I ran up to her.





"My Master!" I ran, and jumped up into her arms. I couldn't believe my eyes. When I turned around Master CeCe was still behind me walking towards us smiling. This was indeed a very happy day.


I waved hello to Master Godfrey while my Master Phobia swung me around. It was fun. I cannot remember ever being so happy. I wanted this moment to last forever. But somehow I knew things were on the change and fast too.




When my Master Phobia put me down I filled her in on what I had done while she had been away. I even told her about the failed grade I got in Tacticts class 101. I was not good at planning counter attacks.






"Belda, You must study more..." Master Godfrey said.


"I tried" I said...






"Belda, trying is for the Sith, Jedi do or we do not, there is no try." Phobia responded.




I nodded yes. They were right. I needed to study harder. I may need that skill one day. I became determined to pass that class.






Master Phobia smiled because she knew I would pass that class if it was the last thing I did. "Belda, I only want you to be the best at everything you can so in later times you dont give up or give in to temptations of the dark side" Phobia said.





"Yes, my Master. I will do better from now on, I will become great Jedi like everyone else here... I will one day!" I said.




"Speaking of lessons, Belda... How is your reading and writing going?" Phobia asked.






I seemed rather embarrased, but I blurted out I got a D - in it. Master Godfrey and Phobia loooked at eachother then at me. I could see the shock and surprise in their eyes.






"Belda, a D-? I am shocked! What have you been doing, skipping class or falling asleep again?" Godfrey asked he didnt look so happy.




"I've been there in class, I just havent been able to grasp it tis all" I said.





"Belda, this isnt good... How do you expect to become a Jedi with failing grades? Not to mention it is a embarrassment... I want you to study harder or else... " Godfrey said.





I nodded yes. He was right. I needed to study harder.










"Belda it is not like you to slack off like this, what is bothering you? I know that look on your face... " She knelt down by me and looked into my eyes. I just looked down. I couldn't tell her what it was, what I was sensing was about to happen... But she was right, there was something hindering my studies... I sensed death...





"Ah it is um... well, I dont think it's important, my Master." I said.




"Belda, dont try that blocking trick with me, please tell me, what is troubling you?" Phobia asked.




Master CeCe, also knelt down near me. She had a look of determineation and concern on her face. "Belda, you Master is asking you something, do not block her out. what is wrong?"




The only responce I could give anyone was tears. I sensed something and this time I couldnt tell anyone... I couldnt tell them of what I saw in my dreams the last few weeks. Of what kept me awake and shakeing at nights. Of the destruction I was forseeing....



All three of them exchanged glances and looked at me... "Belda? It is not right to block you Master, now tell us." Godfrey said sternly.




"I can't, you would not believe me... No one would, no one will listen..." I said and began to cry. Phobia held me close to her.



"Dont cry Belda, it is ok, everything is gonna be ok, I am here Master Godfrey's here Master CeCe is here, we are all here for you Belda, everything is going to be ok. I promise you." Phoia wiped away the tears on my face. "I wish you would tell me whats wrong, but I will give you space to tell me on your own. So when you are ready, I want you to come and tell me ok?"



I sniffled and nodded yes. Eventually I would tell her... I knew it wouldnt be right holding back forever.


TBC..............